I'm officially quitting my goals. I'm done training because I'm done feeling defeated, lack of ambition, and especially failure. I miss running for fun. I want to focus on purpose. So I have decided to put away the training plan and focus this year on enjoying the run and focusing on the "WHY."
Every morning as I make my coffee, I see this sign.
The last few months have been really difficult for me. I can't really name why, but I can tell you it's not normal. I've been feeling defeated and lack of ambition. I miss finding the small joys in life.
As everyone begins this new year with resolutions, I began thinking about what this year brings, and how I am already feeling behind.
So...with that...I have decided to give up my fears, my failure, and to choose joy.
This means I have decided to no longer run the marathon in March. I will be there on race day, in sneakers, and on the course, but I can't tell you the distance I'm going to go until I'm done. Right now, I'm going to choose to enjoy the journey, run for fun, and run for purpose. I'm going to focus on the goal of bringing 750,000 clean water. I'm not going to focus on the fear of failure, but I'm going to succeed in purpose. I'm no longer making it about the course, but am making it about the kids. I'm going to focus on relationships with my team. I'm going to share the story of why I run.
I'll be there on race day, I'll set a personal goal, but right now I'm telling you...I need to refocus. I have focused too much this past year on feeling like failure. Today I put 2018 behind me and choose joy and choose purpose.
